=\

woah... after so many days ngayon lng ulet ako nkpagpost... (haha..parang ilang araw lng nmn...) ngayon lng din ulet ako nkpag-onlyn sa friendster, multiply, and face book...kea mdaming post update n ung nlagpasan ko... ang dami ko nding mail alert sa email ko...

kmusta ako?well, i'm not ok... ndi dhil sa ♥life...kundi dhil sa may cold war kme ng mga kpatid ko...take note..."mga"... yeah rayt... cla bajhing and nancy... my two closest siblings... ang panget sa pkiramdam... they didn't tell me directly kung bkit cla cold, but i think i knew why...and i don't have plans of telling you guys why...hehehe... super pangit sa pkiramdam... last nyt, during the 7:30 mass, habang binabasa ung gospel, i cried discreetly... hndi ko alm kung anu ung ngtrigger pra tumulo ung luha ko, bsta i just felt that something is aching inside of me... super tlga ung feeling n un...knowing that my siosters were there also inside the church attending the mass... hndi ko man lng cla nkita during the "peace be with you" part... sa bhay mas malala... i don't speak to them, they don't speak to me...pag may sasabihin cla kay tita nila pinapasabe... pag nasa baba ako, and they're also there, sinasaksak ko ung earphones ko... huhuhu... feeling outkast ako sa bhay... naiinggit nga ako pag tumatawa cla eh... kxe before, we do really laugh out loud over funny and crazy things together...grrr... i hate it!!! but i don't hate them really... dunno... i just cudn't hate them for hating me... *OMG! naiiyak tlaga ako...hehehe pero uko umiyak, kce exposed ako kila mama...* haiz, i don't know kung hnggang kelan ko matitiis ung mga gnung moments...

GOD HELP ME!!!