Monday, January 18, 2010

@_@

puffy eyed cat...
I'm sick...i'm tired...
will we ever find solace?


the heavens cried...
it washed away the tears flowing from my eyes...

_stupidEMPRESS

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

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goodmorning! it's 3:48 in my watch rayt now... it's soooo early...IKR... i have work l8r...morning shift... that's why :D

i haven't posted any decent blog for the past months...i missed doing so... wala kc akong time...plus marami png related factors like mood swings, flight of ideas (gawd! i'm crazy, ikr!) and so on and so forth...

so far, let me just give a glimpse of what's going on in my life...

* i'm feeling it again...the pain in my back... argh! i'm having difficulty while lying, sitting and even while standing. i wonder kung ano toh... :(

* it's three months already since i started as a volunteer nurse in a gov't hospital. my sked for this month is til the 15th only... after that, i'll be a bum again... hmmm...darn gov't policies!!!! this local gov't really pisses me off... haist...

i have to rethink about my plans...God help me...*military nursing?!?! hir i come?!?!*

* with regards to my rel status, yep, i'm still one (sumone's lurking behind me...i gotta be careful or else) hahahhaa... do i resent this? no...i'm actually loving it...the idea of being free... but the thing is this, i'm into sumone, sum guy of same age like me... what i have for him is real though...i'm sure of this... but i'm not quite sure if he's into me also... many think that we're couples...even his sister (she myt be reading this ryt now! hey yah jo! :D ) but we're not..we're not committed to each other... but i won't call this as pseudo-relaltionship either...coz i don't think it is... haist... we're having dillemas ryt now...i hope we cud handle this one... oh no! i fergot there is no "we" hir nor "us|" it is just basically i and him... T_T i'm actually waiting for a sign...holy crap... :D


oooppss...times up! time for me to go... gotta bounce!

Monday, January 11, 2010

i randomly feel pang in my chest over the past week...
my heart throbs faster every time the idea of u walking away sinks into my sober mind..
everything seems hazed...

are we doomed?



i'm holdin on...until u tel me to let u go...




_the masochistEMPRESS :|

Monday, January 4, 2010

i don't usually spend time thinking about my new year's resolution for the past decade of my life...
for me, it wud just be another promise for myself that i knew wud be broken...
i knew then that nothing wud happen because i won't be able to do my resolution...

but for this year, i'd like to make a difference...
i'd like to start anew...

i actually have thought about making my resolutions for the year 2010...
i'm not yet done, but i'm almost near the end part...

1. Be more tactful... (i must admit, i'm a very tactless person..*hndi lng obvious*)
2. spend less... because i'm such a big spender...
3. be more sensitive to other's feelings...
4. to be nicer... :D kc maldita daw ako...
5. to attend more parties, reunion and gathering as much as i cud...kce plgue nlng ako ang absent !!!!
6. be more decisive...
7. be independent... ^^
8. to spend more time to rest than FBing and internet surfing...*this one's very tough for me...*
9. to go to gym...(sana mgawa ko to khet once a week lng)
10. to switch from sedentary to active lifestyle... :D
11. to attend in choir practices more often...
12. to still participate in church activities despite my irregular work schedule...
13. be punctual... :D ahhahaahhahaa..lalo n kpag morning shift..
14. eat healthier foods...

....

at marami pang iba...

see...

andami mxado..but i'm looking forward to accomplish all here in my list...So help me GOD!!!