nagising ako knina dahil sa isang pangit na panaginip. hanggang ngayon, pag naiisip ko parang ayoko na munang matulog bka kasi mapanaginipan ko pa ulit. mahirap magising sa katotohanan pero mas masaklap ang mamuhay sa kasinungalingan. bakit ko nasabi? wala lng. gusto ko lang. totoo naman talaga ang bagay na ito.
naisip kong magbsa ng mga blog knina. karamihan sa sa mga tao, naghahanap ng kani-kanilang kaligayahan. isama mo na ako sa listahan. anu-ano nga ba ang mga bagay na tunay na nakapagpapaligaya sa atin? pera ba? dahil sa maaari mong bilhin lahat ng gusto mo kapag marami kang kwarta..? maraming taong gustong maging mayaman dahil sa gusto nila ng maraming pera. dahil halos lahat nlng yata ng bagay sa mundo ay kayang bayaran ng pera. bahay.sapatos.bags.gadgets.magarang kotse.condo.mansion.resort.eroplano.helikopter.laruan.isla.at kahit siguro isang buong bansa kaya mong bilhin kung marami kang pera. hindi na ako maghuhugas kamay. isa ako sa mga taong gustong maging mayaman.gustong kumita ng malaki para matustusan ang mga luho sa buhay na gusto kong makuha. naalala ko nung unang beses akong sumweldo. hndi nman yun kalakihan. mabilis dn naubos. nabigyan ko cla mama, si tita, yung iba kong kapatid. nkapagbayad ako ng utang. at nakabili ako ng isang damit. tapos nun, nakita ko nlang bgla ang sarili ko na naghahangad ng mas higit pa. nakakatawang isipin pero gumawa ako ng christmas wishlist na halos ngkakahalaga ng 16K. ahahahaha...
hanggang sa dumating yung araw na naisip ko kung talaga nga bang mapapasaya ako ng mga bagay na nabibili ko gmit ang pera. nagnilay ako ng maigi. maraming bagay ang nakapagbukas ng aking isipan. ang mga bagay na to ay madaling nawawala. nasisira. lumilipas. nakaramdam ako ng kalungkutan. hindi pala yon ang magbibigay sa atin ng kaligayan. maaring oo, pero panandalian lamang.
naisip ko ang aking pamilya. kaibigan at iba pang mga mahal sa buhay. ang mga taong palging maging malungkot man ako o masaya. kung sumupungin man ako ng aking pagkatopakin at kung lumuwag man ang isa sa mga turnilyo sa aking utak ay nandyan parin cla para ako'y samahan, pakinggan,at batukan. sa mga panahong walang-wala ako ang mga taong ita ang maipagmamalaki kong meron ako sa aking buhay. madalas man na ako ang humihiwalay sa kanila dhil mas pinapahalagahan ko ang mga bagay/ taong madaling nawawala at umaalis sa aking buhay, alam kong palagi clang andyan. alam kong cla lang yung dadamay sken. cla lang yung makikinig sa mga kwento kong kahit paulit-ulit na at masakit na sa tenga. cla yung mga taong kahit ilang beses akong nakagawa ng katangahan sa buhay ay hnding-hndi ako huhusgahan. ang mga taong tanggap kung cno at kung ano ako. ako ay isang baliw. alam nila yan. iyakin ako at mahina. sila ang mga taong walang sawang nagpapaalala sa akin na andyan palagi si God. reading-ready para ako'y paluin at patahanin.
namimiss ko na ang mga taong ito. sa peysbuk ko nlng cla nakakausap. swerte ko nlng kpag nkikita ko cla. ngkakaroon ako ng pagkakataon para mayakap cla. pero gusto ko ulit silang makasama. makakwentuhan.
ito ang wish ko ngayong pasko. hndi sya mabibili ng pera. sna matanggap ko.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
author's note: this is my blog post last { July 10, 2008 @ 3:25 am } · { Uncategorized } { } · { Comments } on my FS blog
i decided to repost it... wla lng... :) this is one of my passion
i’ve read this sign on a shirt in a known boutique…
it caught my attention.
i doubted it.
there are lot of times when we don’t mean what we say.
and oftentimes we don’t mean what we do.
things we do and the things we say does not jive with each other.
these things happen especially when we want to conceal our hidden agendas.
our inner feelings.
we do this because we tend to conform to what wud others wud think.
it is our form of ESCAPE.
in one way or another, we don’t feel like ourselves wen we do such things.
we look for other ways to express our true selves.
wen we were born in this world, the very first thing we learned is to ACT.
we acquire this through mimicking.
we mimic our parents, our yayas and etc.
we learn from their gestures towards us.
then,as we begin to speak we mimic wat they say.
we repeat wtever they tell us to say…
as we grow, we acquire knowledge.
we attend schooling.
our parents wud teach us to write our names then the numbers and etc.
as we progress from grade one to grade six, we learn to construct sentences.
then we learned how to write a paragraph.
we were taught how to write a letter.
then we write journals.
articles.
diaries.
when we write, we unreservedly write everything we want to say.
especially wen we do it only for ourselves.
we do this wen we can’t say watever we wanted to day.
we do this in our own private place.
a place where we can be just purely ourselves.
there are certain things that you don’t wish to do or say but you just have to express it. and so we write it.
for me writing blogs reveals our true selves.
it unveils the hidden truths behind our smiles, laughter and tears.
it does not only divulge our other side but it cud also be a means of free expressionism.( damn, where d hell did got that one?)
maybe i’m saying this because i’m one of the few people hu can’t do the things they want to do and say the things they are meaning to say.
but not all people hu write blogs are like me.
they may be true in watever aspect expressing themselves.
maybe, just maybe…
we shud all apply this to ourselves…
MEAN WATEVER U SAY, DO AND WRITE! ^^
i decided to repost it... wla lng... :) this is one of my passion
i’ve read this sign on a shirt in a known boutique…
it caught my attention.
i doubted it.
there are lot of times when we don’t mean what we say.
and oftentimes we don’t mean what we do.
things we do and the things we say does not jive with each other.
these things happen especially when we want to conceal our hidden agendas.
our inner feelings.
we do this because we tend to conform to what wud others wud think.
it is our form of ESCAPE.
in one way or another, we don’t feel like ourselves wen we do such things.
we look for other ways to express our true selves.
wen we were born in this world, the very first thing we learned is to ACT.
we acquire this through mimicking.
we mimic our parents, our yayas and etc.
we learn from their gestures towards us.
then,as we begin to speak we mimic wat they say.
we repeat wtever they tell us to say…
as we grow, we acquire knowledge.
we attend schooling.
our parents wud teach us to write our names then the numbers and etc.
as we progress from grade one to grade six, we learn to construct sentences.
then we learned how to write a paragraph.
we were taught how to write a letter.
then we write journals.
articles.
diaries.
when we write, we unreservedly write everything we want to say.
especially wen we do it only for ourselves.
we do this wen we can’t say watever we wanted to day.
we do this in our own private place.
a place where we can be just purely ourselves.
there are certain things that you don’t wish to do or say but you just have to express it. and so we write it.
for me writing blogs reveals our true selves.
it unveils the hidden truths behind our smiles, laughter and tears.
it does not only divulge our other side but it cud also be a means of free expressionism.( damn, where d hell did got that one?)
maybe i’m saying this because i’m one of the few people hu can’t do the things they want to do and say the things they are meaning to say.
but not all people hu write blogs are like me.
they may be true in watever aspect expressing themselves.
maybe, just maybe…
we shud all apply this to ourselves…
MEAN WATEVER U SAY, DO AND WRITE! ^^
Thursday, September 23, 2010
TAWEEEEEELIS!
*suki! bili kna dito! sariwa mga isda ko ngayon... bagong huli yan...*
matao. maingay. maraming ilaw. malangaw ;). maputik. malansa ang amoy.
yan ang karaniwang eksenang makikita pagpasok mo sa palengke.
nung bata pa lang ako, madalas na 'kong sumama sa nanay ko at sa tiyahin kapag namamalengke. akong yung julalay nila. tagabitbit ng mga plastic na may lamang karne ng baboy, baka, isda, gulay at kung anu-ano pa. pag meron akong napagtripan at nagustuhan, nagpapabili ako kay mama. swerte kung ibili nia ako...kung hindi nman, ok lang.
kaninang umaga, pauwi na kame galing duty ng naisipan ni mama na dumaan sa palengke ng pasay. kahit na wala pa akong tulog, hindi nman ako maka-angal. :p
sabi ng nanay ko, maghintay na lang daw ako dun sa isang side, siya na lang daw yung papasok sa loob. hindi ako pumayag. mas gugustuhin ko pang mag-lakad sa loob ng maputika t maingay na apalengke, kesa mghintay at magmukmok sa isang sulok. boring yun. baka makatulog lang ako. :p
bibili siya ng mga pang-sahog sa ulam.una naming pinuntahan yung pwesto ng mga karne ng baboy at baka. mejo marunong naman akong tumingin ng sariwang karne kahit papaano :))
tinignan ko ng maigi kung panu hiniwa ni kuya-manong yung karne ng baboy. no sweat! parang natutulog lang. saktong sakto ang ang bawat bagsak ng kutsilyo dun sa karne. kahit nga hind nia tignan eh. hahaha... oo, namangha ako! ako kasi, super effort kapag nghihiwa. iba siguro talaga kapag palagi mo nang ginagawa. nagiging parte na ng sistema mo.
sumunod naman sa mga isda. kahit na matagal na akong sumama sa kanila sa pamamalengke, BOKYA pa din ako sa pagtingin kung sariwa pa ba yung isda o hindi na. minsan tsumatsamba, pero madalas ayokong sumugal kya hndi ako namimili ng isda. :p ma, turuan mo nga ako... :)
yung nanay ko knina, parang may hinhanap. hindi ko naman alam kung ano. hangang sa huminto siya sa isang tindahan ulit ng isda. "magkano sa tawilis?" tanong nia dun sa mama... "kwarenta kalahati.." ewan ko ba kung bakit nia pa tinanong eh, may kardbord na nga sa ibabaw ng tumpok ng mga tawilis. and nakasulat *P 40.00 1/2* hahahaha.... dedma rin naman si manong.. habang nakatayo pa lng kame ni mama, tinitignan na nung manong yung nakasulat sa yuniform namen... "taga pasay gen ba kayo?" tanong nia samen... "opo.." sagot ko naman... "yung manugang ko, dun din nagtatrabaho eh..dun sya sa dietary.." nung iaabot na ni mama yun bayad sbay sa pagabot ng mama sa plastic ng tawilis... "cge na, libre na yan..pabuenas.." etong nanay ko naman eh tlgang mapilit magbayad...kunyari pang ayaw ng libre.. *peace maaaaa! :)* hahahha... eh mapilit 'tong si manong.. "cge na, sa susunod na lang na balik nio...yun hindi na libre...i-kamusta nio nlng kme kay tess... " salamat po manong!!! hndi ko man lng natanong yung pangalan nio... :)
ahahahaha... ang galing galing!
"ate, sukli nio ho..."
matao. maingay. maraming ilaw. malangaw ;). maputik. malansa ang amoy.
yan ang karaniwang eksenang makikita pagpasok mo sa palengke.
pero sa pag-labas namin, marami akong natutunan. marami bagay na hindi nakikita, naamoy at nararamdaman sa loob ng palengke...
ang pagdadamayan, pakikisama, at pakikipag kapwa-tao...
Saturday, September 18, 2010
breathe in...breathe out
wen pipol get tired of wat dey'r doing, they are faced with these two options: 1.) to take a rest and then continue after regaining strength; 2.) to stop and let go of everything they've done without looking back...
_think_about_it!
_think_about_it!
Monday, May 24, 2010
stress ball
GUD MORNING! yeah...
wat a typical tym for me to blog huh? it's 0156 in my watch btw...
i just had my uplifting...mind blowing conversation with a significant person in my life ryt now... or shud i say my stress ball... no we're not in a relationship...we're not dating either... we're just getting to know each other... the thing is, he tried to court me... and honestly, i liked him *applause for u*... but ironically, i actually told him to stop...
i guess, u guys know that i just had a failed relationship not more than six months ago... and it wasn't just another fling that i had... it was a serious one... or at least, i was serious about it... yeah, i'm taking relationships seriously, more than anything in this world...more than my homeworks...more than my nursing process...more than my nursing care plan which is really vital for me as a nursing student/nurse :|
my life actually turned upside down when he decided to cool things off between us and eventually led into not seeing/talking to each other anymore.... i was a pathetic human being that time... not knowing where to start again, as if my whole life was wrecked...
and then, there came mr.jfk... i labeled him that in my fonebuk... :P it was an unexpected confession he made about two months ago through FB... :p hehehe...that was funny... at first, i really don't like him... i think he's weird... and he still is... :p but of course i didn't act aloof... i actually entertained him...
as time went by, i discovered his sweet/funny/serious/intellectual/soft/caring side... which really started to melt the metal bars that's holding my precious heart in prison... yeah, he was able to do that... it really feels good talking to him...
well, we talk more often through chat, fb, and fone...we seldom talk in person... i wished we cud though... how i wish... :D i actually think i found d one who'd do anything and everything for me... sumone who'd love me in my worst and in my best...he looks at me as if i mean the whole world to him... he's that sumone i wish one day i cud have for the rest of my life...
but then, i held back...
i don't think it's right... i'm very vulnerable to hurting others... that's my point... i don't want him to get hurt... then i realized, i'm doing it already... so where's my point going to?
yeah, maybe i'm crazy... but i just hope i don't regret the decisions i made right now... i hope that watever the outcomes maybe, i'l be able to paint a smile on my face... i'm not waiting for a miracle to happen... i just wanted to be fair with him... for now, i want to see him happy... because he deserve that...ol i wanted is to be free from my past before i enter into a new relationship...
in that case, it requires patience i guess...
in the end i'd still stick to this quote i heard from a local TV program...
*they say it's a perfect love when the mind agrees with the heart...*
for now, my mind does not agree with my heart...
if only love cud wait...
_theWISHFUL&HOPEFULempress
wat a typical tym for me to blog huh? it's 0156 in my watch btw...
i just had my uplifting...mind blowing conversation with a significant person in my life ryt now... or shud i say my stress ball... no we're not in a relationship...we're not dating either... we're just getting to know each other... the thing is, he tried to court me... and honestly, i liked him *applause for u*... but ironically, i actually told him to stop...
i guess, u guys know that i just had a failed relationship not more than six months ago... and it wasn't just another fling that i had... it was a serious one... or at least, i was serious about it... yeah, i'm taking relationships seriously, more than anything in this world...more than my homeworks...more than my nursing process...more than my nursing care plan which is really vital for me as a nursing student/nurse :|
my life actually turned upside down when he decided to cool things off between us and eventually led into not seeing/talking to each other anymore.... i was a pathetic human being that time... not knowing where to start again, as if my whole life was wrecked...
and then, there came mr.jfk... i labeled him that in my fonebuk... :P it was an unexpected confession he made about two months ago through FB... :p hehehe...that was funny... at first, i really don't like him... i think he's weird... and he still is... :p but of course i didn't act aloof... i actually entertained him...
as time went by, i discovered his sweet/funny/serious/intellectual/soft/caring side... which really started to melt the metal bars that's holding my precious heart in prison... yeah, he was able to do that... it really feels good talking to him...
well, we talk more often through chat, fb, and fone...we seldom talk in person... i wished we cud though... how i wish... :D i actually think i found d one who'd do anything and everything for me... sumone who'd love me in my worst and in my best...he looks at me as if i mean the whole world to him... he's that sumone i wish one day i cud have for the rest of my life...
but then, i held back...
i don't think it's right... i'm very vulnerable to hurting others... that's my point... i don't want him to get hurt... then i realized, i'm doing it already... so where's my point going to?
yeah, maybe i'm crazy... but i just hope i don't regret the decisions i made right now... i hope that watever the outcomes maybe, i'l be able to paint a smile on my face... i'm not waiting for a miracle to happen... i just wanted to be fair with him... for now, i want to see him happy... because he deserve that...ol i wanted is to be free from my past before i enter into a new relationship...
in that case, it requires patience i guess...
in the end i'd still stick to this quote i heard from a local TV program...
*they say it's a perfect love when the mind agrees with the heart...*
for now, my mind does not agree with my heart...
if only love cud wait...
_theWISHFUL&HOPEFULempress
Monday, April 19, 2010
....
i was trying to figure some things out since last night...
things that might or may change my life...
i was being ambivalent on the choices that's being laid down in my life right now...
a part of me says go...
a part of me says, hold on...no not yet...
well, maybe God doesn't really want me to decide things immediately...
maybe i should take things slowly...
*breathe in... Breathe out...*
*they say it's a perfect love when the mind agrees with the heart...*
love waits... hope u cud... ^_*
:)
things that might or may change my life...
i was being ambivalent on the choices that's being laid down in my life right now...
a part of me says go...
a part of me says, hold on...no not yet...
well, maybe God doesn't really want me to decide things immediately...
maybe i should take things slowly...
*breathe in... Breathe out...*
*they say it's a perfect love when the mind agrees with the heart...*
love waits... hope u cud... ^_*
:)
Sunday, March 7, 2010
i saw a ghost from the past last night… such a beautiful ghost who gave me a bad dream that until now i haven’t woken up… a sweet dream turned out into a beautiful nightmare i wish i never had… i thought i was already done dreaming… that monster wasn’t really chasing me…nor did it even see me nor even knew that i ever existed… but the mere fact that i saw the ghost gives me chills… makes me sick… drowns me from the bitterness the reality and dreamland could offer… last night i wish i was blind… but then, i wasn’t… and now i realized i’m still the miserable empress you left hanging…
_wake up @_@
_wake up @_@
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
open letter for KMGB....
mgdadalawang buwan na pala... hindi ko alam kung ngingitian ko na lang un nangyare... hndi ko pa kc kyang tawanan... khit n minsan pinpkita kong wala n sken lhat... mhirap rin pla magpanggap... cnubukan kong ausin... akala ko kc pwede pa... un pla hndi na... nabulag kc ako... nbulag ako sa pag-ibig na ako lng ang nakakita... ang saya-saya p kc ng mga pngyayare bago un...akala ko okei lhat... may exchange gift pa tayong nalalaman... *tawa* tas biglang ngbago lang lhat...anu un? gusto kong malaman kung anong ngyare... cnubukan kong mkipag-usap...ayaw mo nman... cguro nman, i deserve to know what happened db? db!!!!!???!?!?!?!?!?!? ang dami-dami kong tanong...sabi mo, mukhang nkapag- MOVE ON na ako?!?!?! san banda kris?!?! san banda?!?! iniexpect mo b n mgiging losyang ang tsura ko dhil lng sa iniwan mo ako..?? pag gnun b ang ngyari at mukha akong depres-depressan e babalik ka?!?!?!?! pucha nman... kaso sabi mo nung valentines (at talagang ngtext kp nun?!?!?!?!) w/c is rili unexpected, na wala kang dapat sabihin at ipaliwanag sken..... and that u hope we can be friends?!?!?!?!? how can we be friends kung hndi k honest...(but i think, hndi tlga tayo pdeng mging frends sa situation ntin ngaun...not now...cguro tsaka n pag magaling n ung mga scars) sana hindi k nlng ngtxt!!!!! argh!!!!! at that moment gusto kitang cgawan...gsto kitang saktan, sapakin, upakan, bugbugin!!! huhuhuhuhuhuhu.... so talagang ganon? wala tlga akong dapat malaman? anu un, i'm left hanging?!?!?!?! or u'l let me judge u nlng?!?!?!?!?! isa kng malaking BULLSHIT!!! huhuhuhu.... now i'm left wondering what rili happened... i wonder what have i done wrong?!?!!?!?! mahirap b para sayong sabihin ang totoo!?!?! cguro nga may idea nko...cguro nanawa kn, hndi mo n ako mahal... or khit ano png dhilan mo...but then i want to know it straight from you!!!!! i can handle bitter truths better than sweet lies... ngayon, hindi talaga ako ok...pakiramdam ko npaka-EMO ko araw2...buti nlng marami png dahilan para mging masaya at tumawa kundi magiging suicidal nko... salamat sa mga kaibigan kong alam kong andyan para sken...khit n nung mga panahon n kailangan kong pumili kung sayo b ako sasama o s kanila ay pipili ko clang iwan mkasama k lng...(isa akong malaking bullshit!)
huhuhuhuhuhu...
lam mo, may kanta ako para sayo at sa sarili ko...ung speechless ni lady gaga... nkkarelate ako ee... nga pala dinelete n kita sa friends list ko sa FB...just in case u're wondering y u can't access my profile...(may ngsabe kc sken)
don't worry dito lng nmn kita cnbhan ng bullshit*as if mababasa mo db?!?!*
khit nga sbi ng mga frends ko n isipin ko nlng dw ung mga bgay n dpat kong kmuhian sayo pra mas madali ang pag-mumuv on hndi ko gsutong gwin... auko...aukong mangyari un... dhil pinpahalagahan ko ung pingsamahan nten...:(
nirerespeto ko nmn ung decisyon mo kung ayaw mo n tlga ee...ang sken lng, sbihin mo sken kung anong ngyari at dumating sa point n gnun...dahil naniniwala ako n lhat ng bgay ay may dhilan...
sa ngayon, pipilit kong maging masaya... para sa family ko..pra sa sarili ko...
ikaw, alam kong masaya ka...nkikita ko sa pics mo...mukha nmng hndi ka apektado...
masaya nkong mkita kng msaya...
o xa...madami n kong mxadong cnbe...at alam ko nmng hndi mo toh mbbasa...:p gudlak db?
ingats k plgue! God bless!!!
huhuhuhuhuhu...
lam mo, may kanta ako para sayo at sa sarili ko...ung speechless ni lady gaga... nkkarelate ako ee... nga pala dinelete n kita sa friends list ko sa FB...just in case u're wondering y u can't access my profile...(may ngsabe kc sken)
don't worry dito lng nmn kita cnbhan ng bullshit*as if mababasa mo db?!?!*
khit nga sbi ng mga frends ko n isipin ko nlng dw ung mga bgay n dpat kong kmuhian sayo pra mas madali ang pag-mumuv on hndi ko gsutong gwin... auko...aukong mangyari un... dhil pinpahalagahan ko ung pingsamahan nten...:(
nirerespeto ko nmn ung decisyon mo kung ayaw mo n tlga ee...ang sken lng, sbihin mo sken kung anong ngyari at dumating sa point n gnun...dahil naniniwala ako n lhat ng bgay ay may dhilan...
sa ngayon, pipilit kong maging masaya... para sa family ko..pra sa sarili ko...
ikaw, alam kong masaya ka...nkikita ko sa pics mo...mukha nmng hndi ka apektado...
masaya nkong mkita kng msaya...
o xa...madami n kong mxadong cnbe...at alam ko nmng hndi mo toh mbbasa...:p gudlak db?
ingats k plgue! God bless!!!
Saturday, February 6, 2010
i watched 50 first dates today...yeah, my first time... dude antagal n nun...ngayon ko lng npanood... boo me... atlist db napanuod ko na... thanks joeanne patricia beral aka "trish" for sharing your vcd copy with me! :D didn't i mention before that i'm such a sucker of romatic-comedy movies... :D it was really good... masaya manuod ng mga chick flicks... they make me "kilig" over and over again... he he... oo na...cge na...jan nko magaling sa mga kakiligan n yan...
it really feels good after watching such a movie...
it relieves me from my own misery...
wooh...
tonight i'l dream of you again... ;|
Monday, January 18, 2010
@_@
puffy eyed cat...
I'm sick...i'm tired...
will we ever find solace?
the heavens cried...
it washed away the tears flowing from my eyes...
_stupidEMPRESS
I'm sick...i'm tired...
will we ever find solace?
the heavens cried...
it washed away the tears flowing from my eyes...
_stupidEMPRESS
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
-_-
goodmorning! it's 3:48 in my watch rayt now... it's soooo early...IKR... i have work l8r...morning shift... that's why :D
i haven't posted any decent blog for the past months...i missed doing so... wala kc akong time...plus marami png related factors like mood swings, flight of ideas (gawd! i'm crazy, ikr!) and so on and so forth...
so far, let me just give a glimpse of what's going on in my life...
* i'm feeling it again...the pain in my back... argh! i'm having difficulty while lying, sitting and even while standing. i wonder kung ano toh... :(
* it's three months already since i started as a volunteer nurse in a gov't hospital. my sked for this month is til the 15th only... after that, i'll be a bum again... hmmm...darn gov't policies!!!! this local gov't really pisses me off... haist...
i have to rethink about my plans...God help me...*military nursing?!?! hir i come?!?!*
* with regards to my rel status, yep, i'm still one (sumone's lurking behind me...i gotta be careful or else) hahahhaa... do i resent this? no...i'm actually loving it...the idea of being free... but the thing is this, i'm into sumone, sum guy of same age like me... what i have for him is real though...i'm sure of this... but i'm not quite sure if he's into me also... many think that we're couples...even his sister (she myt be reading this ryt now! hey yah jo! :D ) but we're not..we're not committed to each other... but i won't call this as pseudo-relaltionship either...coz i don't think it is... haist... we're having dillemas ryt now...i hope we cud handle this one... oh no! i fergot there is no "we" hir nor "us|" it is just basically i and him... T_T i'm actually waiting for a sign...holy crap... :D
oooppss...times up! time for me to go... gotta bounce!
i haven't posted any decent blog for the past months...i missed doing so... wala kc akong time...plus marami png related factors like mood swings, flight of ideas (gawd! i'm crazy, ikr!) and so on and so forth...
so far, let me just give a glimpse of what's going on in my life...
* i'm feeling it again...the pain in my back... argh! i'm having difficulty while lying, sitting and even while standing. i wonder kung ano toh... :(
* it's three months already since i started as a volunteer nurse in a gov't hospital. my sked for this month is til the 15th only... after that, i'll be a bum again... hmmm...darn gov't policies!!!! this local gov't really pisses me off... haist...
i have to rethink about my plans...God help me...*military nursing?!?! hir i come?!?!*
* with regards to my rel status, yep, i'm still one (sumone's lurking behind me...i gotta be careful or else) hahahhaa... do i resent this? no...i'm actually loving it...the idea of being free... but the thing is this, i'm into sumone, sum guy of same age like me... what i have for him is real though...i'm sure of this... but i'm not quite sure if he's into me also... many think that we're couples...even his sister (she myt be reading this ryt now! hey yah jo! :D ) but we're not..we're not committed to each other... but i won't call this as pseudo-relaltionship either...coz i don't think it is... haist... we're having dillemas ryt now...i hope we cud handle this one... oh no! i fergot there is no "we" hir nor "us|" it is just basically i and him... T_T i'm actually waiting for a sign...holy crap... :D
oooppss...times up! time for me to go... gotta bounce!
Monday, January 11, 2010
Monday, January 4, 2010
i don't usually spend time thinking about my new year's resolution for the past decade of my life...
for me, it wud just be another promise for myself that i knew wud be broken...
i knew then that nothing wud happen because i won't be able to do my resolution...
but for this year, i'd like to make a difference...
i'd like to start anew...
i actually have thought about making my resolutions for the year 2010...
i'm not yet done, but i'm almost near the end part...
1. Be more tactful... (i must admit, i'm a very tactless person..*hndi lng obvious*)
2. spend less... because i'm such a big spender...
3. be more sensitive to other's feelings...
4. to be nicer... :D kc maldita daw ako...
5. to attend more parties, reunion and gathering as much as i cud...kce plgue nlng ako ang absent !!!!
6. be more decisive...
7. be independent... ^^
8. to spend more time to rest than FBing and internet surfing...*this one's very tough for me...*
9. to go to gym...(sana mgawa ko to khet once a week lng)
10. to switch from sedentary to active lifestyle... :D
11. to attend in choir practices more often...
12. to still participate in church activities despite my irregular work schedule...
13. be punctual... :D ahhahaahhahaa..lalo n kpag morning shift..
14. eat healthier foods...
....
at marami pang iba...
see...
andami mxado..but i'm looking forward to accomplish all here in my list...So help me GOD!!!
for me, it wud just be another promise for myself that i knew wud be broken...
i knew then that nothing wud happen because i won't be able to do my resolution...
but for this year, i'd like to make a difference...
i'd like to start anew...
i actually have thought about making my resolutions for the year 2010...
i'm not yet done, but i'm almost near the end part...
1. Be more tactful... (i must admit, i'm a very tactless person..*hndi lng obvious*)
2. spend less... because i'm such a big spender...
3. be more sensitive to other's feelings...
4. to be nicer... :D kc maldita daw ako...
5. to attend more parties, reunion and gathering as much as i cud...kce plgue nlng ako ang absent !!!!
6. be more decisive...
7. be independent... ^^
8. to spend more time to rest than FBing and internet surfing...*this one's very tough for me...*
9. to go to gym...(sana mgawa ko to khet once a week lng)
10. to switch from sedentary to active lifestyle... :D
11. to attend in choir practices more often...
12. to still participate in church activities despite my irregular work schedule...
13. be punctual... :D ahhahaahhahaa..lalo n kpag morning shift..
14. eat healthier foods...
....
at marami pang iba...
see...
andami mxado..but i'm looking forward to accomplish all here in my list...So help me GOD!!!
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
patience is a virtue
it's been months since my last post i think...wah!!! and it's been months that i've been bumming all day inside my cozy house...i'm getting bored!!! super bored that i'm wanting to go schooling again...:(.... *pif
oo nga..graduate n nga ako,board passer pa... la nmn akong trabaho...haiz... i feel useless and dumb and every stupid adjectives applies to me... i'm desperate...desperate of having a job... it's not because i don't have any opportunities at all.. i do...but the thing is, the job offers that i get are far from my field of expertise... call center jobs... customer service assoc...tech support and stuffs like those...and then there's another one, english tutorials for korean students.. i think that would be fun though... *sigh!*
well, the good thing is, i already have submitted my credentials for a staff nurse position in a gov't hospital...i was told to wait til october...if not, november...*geez, lapit ndin nman*
cguro nga i'l just have to wait... naniniwala nmn ako that God has better plans for me... minsan lng tlga i get impatient...and it's not good... i know...but sometimes,even if u understood it already, u'l start questioning HIM again and again..."kelan po b?...gusto ko n po mgtrabaho.."
*pif..*
maybe i'm pathetic..yes...i know...
-the ambivalent empress...
oo nga..graduate n nga ako,board passer pa... la nmn akong trabaho...haiz... i feel useless and dumb and every stupid adjectives applies to me... i'm desperate...desperate of having a job... it's not because i don't have any opportunities at all.. i do...but the thing is, the job offers that i get are far from my field of expertise... call center jobs... customer service assoc...tech support and stuffs like those...and then there's another one, english tutorials for korean students.. i think that would be fun though... *sigh!*
well, the good thing is, i already have submitted my credentials for a staff nurse position in a gov't hospital...i was told to wait til october...if not, november...*geez, lapit ndin nman*
cguro nga i'l just have to wait... naniniwala nmn ako that God has better plans for me... minsan lng tlga i get impatient...and it's not good... i know...but sometimes,even if u understood it already, u'l start questioning HIM again and again..."kelan po b?...gusto ko n po mgtrabaho.."
*pif..*
maybe i'm pathetic..yes...i know...
-the ambivalent empress...
Thursday, July 9, 2009
personality tests...sumhow true...yeah rayt
nakita ko to sa notes ni analyn sa facebook.. i got curious.. hehehehe...
i was surprised kc nun knlick ko ung link personality tests pla ung lamn ng page... i got interested... ever since i love taking tests like this... kya aun cnubukan ko.. most of the time, the analyses are sumwat true... nakakagulat nga eh..pero totoo tlga... ktulad nlng ng mga and2...
What's your personality love style?
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
>>> yeah i do desire a love that will last forever...hopeless romantic ang drama ko ngayon...
What type of personality do you have?
Here is the analysis:
Bright and Cheerful
You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
What does being a friend really mean to you?
You value your friendships: 55%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.
Is He The One For You?
Success Rate In Relationships: 71%
Your relationship is moving forward. Just don't trip over.
You and him would be typical young lovers. It would not be all sweet and romantic if you got together, sometimes you would argue or get confused, but those elements would only make your relationship more exciting. At the moment you are probably assuming that he likes you, but sometimes you might not be so sure. Don't worry, you can be sure that he also feels the same way. When both of you sense special feeling towards each other, your relationship is certainly growing. What you should do is try to express your feelings a little more and learn more about him.
Jealousy Test
Jealousy Level: 65%
You are a jealous person but you try not to let it show
You often get very jealous of others but you are successful at controlling your emotions publicly. When you feel that other people are winning things that you deserve, you get very upset, but you won't hurt anybody else by making a scene. Your jealousy is private. You might, for example, cry yourself to sleep at night when you get really jealous of someone.
* You are more concerned with yourself rather than with others. Superficially, you are a quiet and imaginative person. As you choose to sit at the back, you can converse with your friends although you do not talk a lot.
* You had a dream when you were young. For you, having friends is important, so you have a lot of close friends who share the same dream and interest. You and your life companion have similar personalities.
* You love freedom and want to follow your heart's desires. You might not be at your best when dealing with other people. Once you are given the opportunity to work your chosen way, your gift will shine. A tip for you is not to concentrate too much on your own work, but widen your focus and consider the opinions of other people.
* You are quite pessimistic and wavering. People can simply find out what's on your mind from your facial expression or speech.
i was surprised kc nun knlick ko ung link personality tests pla ung lamn ng page... i got interested... ever since i love taking tests like this... kya aun cnubukan ko.. most of the time, the analyses are sumwat true... nakakagulat nga eh..pero totoo tlga... ktulad nlng ng mga and2...
What's your personality love style?
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
>>> yeah i do desire a love that will last forever...hopeless romantic ang drama ko ngayon...
What type of personality do you have?
Here is the analysis:
Bright and Cheerful
You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
What does being a friend really mean to you?
You value your friendships: 55%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.
Is He The One For You?
Success Rate In Relationships: 71%
Your relationship is moving forward. Just don't trip over.
You and him would be typical young lovers. It would not be all sweet and romantic if you got together, sometimes you would argue or get confused, but those elements would only make your relationship more exciting. At the moment you are probably assuming that he likes you, but sometimes you might not be so sure. Don't worry, you can be sure that he also feels the same way. When both of you sense special feeling towards each other, your relationship is certainly growing. What you should do is try to express your feelings a little more and learn more about him.
Jealousy Test
Jealousy Level: 65%
You are a jealous person but you try not to let it show
You often get very jealous of others but you are successful at controlling your emotions publicly. When you feel that other people are winning things that you deserve, you get very upset, but you won't hurt anybody else by making a scene. Your jealousy is private. You might, for example, cry yourself to sleep at night when you get really jealous of someone.
* You are more concerned with yourself rather than with others. Superficially, you are a quiet and imaginative person. As you choose to sit at the back, you can converse with your friends although you do not talk a lot.
* You had a dream when you were young. For you, having friends is important, so you have a lot of close friends who share the same dream and interest. You and your life companion have similar personalities.
* You love freedom and want to follow your heart's desires. You might not be at your best when dealing with other people. Once you are given the opportunity to work your chosen way, your gift will shine. A tip for you is not to concentrate too much on your own work, but widen your focus and consider the opinions of other people.
* You are quite pessimistic and wavering. People can simply find out what's on your mind from your facial expression or speech.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
weee
hai...nkita ko rin hnhanap ko... at sa NBS recto pa... takte... wala sa MOA PB and NBS...dun ko lng pla mkkita... ang mahal... i don't think it's worth it... i'l go for e-books nlng... sana mei "he's just not that into you"...i can kinda relate to it...
waahhh... i so love it... nung una kong nbasa ung first lines ng blog review bout dun, hinalughog ko n lhat ng NBS sa manila...*exaggerated lng un :p* hehehe...
pero sobrang ntuwa tlga ako knina nung nkita ko xa... sa sobrang excitement, i left my ULG sun sa shelf ng mga cook books... darn! and the worst thing is naalala ko xa nung pababa n ako malapit samen... argh tlga! i can't complain... it was my fault...who's to blame but me...
argh...
aun...
ano pba? nmiss ko kxeng mgblog... kea gnto...hahaha...
cge na...antok nko eh...
byerz!
waahhh... i so love it... nung una kong nbasa ung first lines ng blog review bout dun, hinalughog ko n lhat ng NBS sa manila...*exaggerated lng un :p* hehehe...
pero sobrang ntuwa tlga ako knina nung nkita ko xa... sa sobrang excitement, i left my ULG sun sa shelf ng mga cook books... darn! and the worst thing is naalala ko xa nung pababa n ako malapit samen... argh tlga! i can't complain... it was my fault...who's to blame but me...
argh...
aun...
ano pba? nmiss ko kxeng mgblog... kea gnto...hahaha...
cge na...antok nko eh...
byerz!
Thursday, February 26, 2009
He’s Just Not That Into You
He’s Just Not That Into You Movie Quotes
Don't be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You're deeply missable. However, he's still the same person who just broke up with you. Remember, the only reason he can miss you is because he's choosing, every day, not to be with you.
I don't want to be "sort of dating" someone. I don't want to be "kinda hanging out" with someone. I don't want to spend a lot of energy suppressing my feelings so I appear uninvolved. I want to be involved. I want to be sleeping with someone I know I'll see again because they've already demonstarted to me that they're trustworthy and honorable -- and into me.
Everyone wants to be loved and needed, particularly by the person who just broke up with us. I understand. What could be better than hearing from the man who just told you he didn't want you in his life anymore ... his sad, wistful, "I miss you so much" voice on the other end of the phone? It's validating. It's exciting. It's irresistible. But resist you must.
A man who wants to make a relationship work will move mountains to keep the woman he loves. If he's not calling you to tell you he loves you and wants you back, it should only be because he's showing up at your new residence to do it in person ... if he's not doing any of that, he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately he's just not that into you. Stop taking his calls and let him know what it's like to live without you.
It's very tempting when you really want to be with someone to settle for much, much less -- even a vague pathetic facsimile of less -- than you would have ever imagined. Remember always what you set out to get and please don't settle for less. These guys exist because there are a lot of women out there who allow them to.
Deciding to get back together with someone is a complicated and difficult decision. Just remember that the person you are getting back together with is the same person who, not long before, looked you in your beautiful face, took full stock of you and all your qualities, and told you that he was no longer in need of your company.
Breakups, I've heard, are supposed to be just that. Breaks. Hard, clean breaks. No talking, no seeing, no touching ... keep your hands to yourself. The relationship is over. Half the people I know move after a huge breakup, and frankly that makes perfect sense to me. You're not supposed to sleep with the guy who just broke your heart a week ago. Fine. Next time I'm in this situation I'll cry. Stay in bed and wail. Go to the gym if I can. Call all my friends and burden them with my misery. Sleep too much. Cry some more. See my therapist more often. Get a puppy. Do whatever I have to so eventually I can move on.
There's a guy out there who's going to be really happy that you didn't get back together with your crappy ex-boyfriend.
Don't give him the chance to reject you again.
“A girl will never forget the first boy she ever likes.” .”“We are all programmed to believe that if a guy acts like a total jerk that means he likes you.”
“If a guy treats you like he doesn’t give a s— it’s because he doesn’t give a s—.”
“An excuse is a polite rejection. Men are not afraid of “ruining the friendship.”
“Don’t get tricked into asking him out. If he likes you, he’ll do the asking.”
“If you can find him, then he can find you. If he wants to find you, he will.”
“I just need you to stop being nice to me unless you gonna marry me.”
“What if you meet the love of your life? Are you suppose to let that pass you by?”
nkuha ko to ke jaymie tan...hahahaha... mapanuod nga... mabsa nrin.. meron bng buk nito?
Sunday, February 15, 2009
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woah... after so many days ngayon lng ulet ako nkpagpost... (haha..parang ilang araw lng nmn...) ngayon lng din ulet ako nkpag-onlyn sa friendster, multiply, and face book...kea mdaming post update n ung nlagpasan ko... ang dami ko nding mail alert sa email ko...
kmusta ako?well, i'm not ok... ndi dhil sa ♥life...kundi dhil sa may cold war kme ng mga kpatid ko...take note..."mga"... yeah rayt... cla bajhing and nancy... my two closest siblings... ang panget sa pkiramdam... they didn't tell me directly kung bkit cla cold, but i think i knew why...and i don't have plans of telling you guys why...hehehe... super pangit sa pkiramdam... last nyt, during the 7:30 mass, habang binabasa ung gospel, i cried discreetly... hndi ko alm kung anu ung ngtrigger pra tumulo ung luha ko, bsta i just felt that something is aching inside of me... super tlga ung feeling n un...knowing that my siosters were there also inside the church attending the mass... hndi ko man lng cla nkita during the "peace be with you" part... sa bhay mas malala... i don't speak to them, they don't speak to me...pag may sasabihin cla kay tita nila pinapasabe... pag nasa baba ako, and they're also there, sinasaksak ko ung earphones ko... huhuhu... feeling outkast ako sa bhay... naiinggit nga ako pag tumatawa cla eh... kxe before, we do really laugh out loud over funny and crazy things together...grrr... i hate it!!! but i don't hate them really... dunno... i just cudn't hate them for hating me... *OMG! naiiyak tlaga ako...hehehe pero uko umiyak, kce exposed ako kila mama...* haiz, i don't know kung hnggang kelan ko matitiis ung mga gnung moments...
GOD HELP ME!!!
kmusta ako?well, i'm not ok... ndi dhil sa ♥life...kundi dhil sa may cold war kme ng mga kpatid ko...take note..."mga"... yeah rayt... cla bajhing and nancy... my two closest siblings... ang panget sa pkiramdam... they didn't tell me directly kung bkit cla cold, but i think i knew why...and i don't have plans of telling you guys why...hehehe... super pangit sa pkiramdam... last nyt, during the 7:30 mass, habang binabasa ung gospel, i cried discreetly... hndi ko alm kung anu ung ngtrigger pra tumulo ung luha ko, bsta i just felt that something is aching inside of me... super tlga ung feeling n un...knowing that my siosters were there also inside the church attending the mass... hndi ko man lng cla nkita during the "peace be with you" part... sa bhay mas malala... i don't speak to them, they don't speak to me...pag may sasabihin cla kay tita nila pinapasabe... pag nasa baba ako, and they're also there, sinasaksak ko ung earphones ko... huhuhu... feeling outkast ako sa bhay... naiinggit nga ako pag tumatawa cla eh... kxe before, we do really laugh out loud over funny and crazy things together...grrr... i hate it!!! but i don't hate them really... dunno... i just cudn't hate them for hating me... *OMG! naiiyak tlaga ako...hehehe pero uko umiyak, kce exposed ako kila mama...* haiz, i don't know kung hnggang kelan ko matitiis ung mga gnung moments...
GOD HELP ME!!!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
i'm done
finally!!! hehehe...OMG!!! at last ntapos ko din ung charity work ko for my frend oday... (echos lng...hndi ung charity...mei byad un..) hahaha... grabe... hndi knaya ng powers ko ung mga nkasulat sa libro ng mga soon to be " engineers" kong frend... kmusta nmn kya kung un ung pinursue kong course noh?!? hahaha anu keang ngyari sken? but anyweiz, okei na eh...hahaha... ngbibilang nlng ako ng araw... *ampanget!?! parang mamamatay* aion, bsta...ngccountdown nko...at nkikita ko na ang sarili ko sa loob ng isang malaking hall...yipeee!!!
~~~~i really love what i'm doing here... hai...buti nlng nkahanap ako ng niche s cyberspace... ang saya-saya! it really feels good wen i'm able to express how i feel irregardless of what i'm feeling... whether i'm happy or sad... i don't care if i make sense or not... all that matters to me is that i write and i write whatever's on my mind till i get tired... =') pero xempre masay din nmn kung may mag-cocompliment sa mga pinagagagawa mo db?
i do believe in the thoery of relativity... what may be right for me may be wrong for you and vice versa... pwedeng para sken maganda ako tas sa iba, ako ang pinakamaganda!!! hahaha... *u cannot make angal...i'm in control of the keyboard=')* hahaha.... pwedeng ung masaya para sknya eh malungkot para sken...it really depend on how you view things in your own perspective...
so pwede rin kya na meron tayong kanya-kanyang realidad? gets mu ba??? kung pagbabasehan ang teoryang ito eh di hndi nting matatawag na baliw ung mga taong cnasabi nting ng-"hahallucinate"... at hndi rin tayo pwedeng manghusga ng kung ano ang tama at kung ano ang mali??? hahaha.... tae... anu daw??? pati ako nguluhan tuloi...ang gulo tuloy ng utak ko...hehehe...
~~~madalas kesa sa hndi, ginagawa kong kumplikado ang mga bagy-bgay khit na hndi nmn dpat...ung iniicp kong solusyon sa problema, kung minsan sobrang malayo tlaga...kea imbis na maayos, lalo tuloy gumugulo ang sitwasyon... ilang beses ng ngyari un sken eh...hahaha... ang nkakainis dun, alam ko n nga n ako ang ngpapakumplikado sa sitwsyon, pinagpapatuloy ko pden...para bang un lng ang alam kong gawin... kelan ko kaya mararanasan n gwing simple lng ang lhat ng npakakumplikadong bagay para sken?.... wish ku lang...
~~~~ayan...mejo maluwag n ung utak ko..hahaha...wala nkong msabe eh... gusto ko ng mabsa ung new moon hnggang breaking dawn!!!! anyone hu has a gud heart? pls lend me ur twilight saga books.... i'm pleading u!!!! hahahaa... i'm just a poor gal who cannot afford to buy the precious books i wanted to read... hnggang hiram lang ako eh...
nyt everyone!!! swit drimz!!!
God bless!!!
hai...auko maspoil ung mga gnung moments ko... hehehe... tama na... *mei gnun?!*
~~~~i really love what i'm doing here... hai...buti nlng nkahanap ako ng niche s cyberspace... ang saya-saya! it really feels good wen i'm able to express how i feel irregardless of what i'm feeling... whether i'm happy or sad... i don't care if i make sense or not... all that matters to me is that i write and i write whatever's on my mind till i get tired... =') pero xempre masay din nmn kung may mag-cocompliment sa mga pinagagagawa mo db?
i do believe in the thoery of relativity... what may be right for me may be wrong for you and vice versa... pwedeng para sken maganda ako tas sa iba, ako ang pinakamaganda!!! hahaha... *u cannot make angal...i'm in control of the keyboard=')* hahaha.... pwedeng ung masaya para sknya eh malungkot para sken...it really depend on how you view things in your own perspective...
so pwede rin kya na meron tayong kanya-kanyang realidad? gets mu ba??? kung pagbabasehan ang teoryang ito eh di hndi nting matatawag na baliw ung mga taong cnasabi nting ng-"hahallucinate"... at hndi rin tayo pwedeng manghusga ng kung ano ang tama at kung ano ang mali??? hahaha.... tae... anu daw??? pati ako nguluhan tuloi...ang gulo tuloy ng utak ko...hehehe...
~~~madalas kesa sa hndi, ginagawa kong kumplikado ang mga bagy-bgay khit na hndi nmn dpat...ung iniicp kong solusyon sa problema, kung minsan sobrang malayo tlaga...kea imbis na maayos, lalo tuloy gumugulo ang sitwasyon... ilang beses ng ngyari un sken eh...hahaha... ang nkakainis dun, alam ko n nga n ako ang ngpapakumplikado sa sitwsyon, pinagpapatuloy ko pden...para bang un lng ang alam kong gawin... kelan ko kaya mararanasan n gwing simple lng ang lhat ng npakakumplikadong bagay para sken?.... wish ku lang...
~~~~ayan...mejo maluwag n ung utak ko..hahaha...wala nkong msabe eh... gusto ko ng mabsa ung new moon hnggang breaking dawn!!!! anyone hu has a gud heart? pls lend me ur twilight saga books.... i'm pleading u!!!! hahahaa... i'm just a poor gal who cannot afford to buy the precious books i wanted to read... hnggang hiram lang ako eh...
nyt everyone!!! swit drimz!!!
God bless!!!
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
recollection: february four two thousand and nine
weeeeeeeee....
earlier this day, our class had a recollection held at the school multi-purpose hall...it was supposed to start at 8 am...i arrived 9 am...i was late! grrr... sayang... yeah...i really don't find recollections as a corny event...i'm actually excited about it...i sat at the back with rj, menchie and brion... it was kinda noisy.... ang ingay ng mga classmates ko...ang aga-aga restless na cla..hahaha.... when i looked at the person speaking in front, i recognized that he was the same guy who facilitated our recollection way back 2007, when we were second year....that was held in San Carlos Seminary at Guadalupe, Makati City... aun...geh balik na tayo sa present... hehehe... pinalipat kme ni Sir joel sa hrap...nauna akong lumipat....then menchie followed.... we sat on the second row...then a woman stood in front and told everybody sitting at the back to transfer in the vacant at the front row... good thing that they followed her...hehehe.... nung una mejo attentive to unattentive ung status ko...hahaha... sorry po! tska c mench, ang daldal! hahaha.... interesting nmn ung talk eh.... (i forgot to mention the name of the facilitators...hehehe.... there were two of them...kuya joel and ate malou) kudos to you peple!
aun... i wud just like to share some of the few words of wisdom na shinare din nila smen knina...^^tnx to menchie and brion for the notebook and pen n binigay nila sken nung bday ko!hehehe.... tnx also to karla for lending me her colored pens....luvyah kulluh!
" you can never be sure....:'(" ---ate malou
kung anong ka ngayon yan ay dahil sa kung ano ung mga gnwa mo noon...you can blame no one but yourself!
we are called to exist!
respect begets respect..
the antidote to our every FEAR is our STRONG FAITH in God!
LET GO!!!!
will you stay or go...?
life is so short!:'(
relate with others... bridge the gap...
" less prayer, less blessing... no prayer, no blessing... no God, no Life..."
use your heart instead of your mind...
sbe ni ate malou eto ung meaning ng humility....
humility is the knowledge of who God is and the complete acknoledgement of who we really are
hndi daw totoo na time heals....
We have the capacity to change and bring change because we are God's children....
act consciously!!! BE AWARE!!!!
~~~~ change is a commitment....it is constant.... curiosity leads to change.....CHANGE FOR THE BETTER!!!! CHRIST completes the CHANGE!!!!.....
where our reason ends, FAITH begins...
~~~~~ basically, umikot ung recollection nmen tungkol sa pgging ready nmen sumabak sa mundo sa labas ng paaralan... kung matatag ba ang relasxon nmn sa mga mhal nmn sa buhay....sa mga tao sa pligid nmn...sa mga taong hndi nmn kakilala....sa relasyong nmn kay God at kung anu2 pa...
i really had a great day today.... after the talk....ngkaroon ng reconciliation/ hugging moments ang buong class ng BSN IV-6...hehehe... yes, i hugged them al...except for the few yata n busy rin hugging our other classmates... i reconciled with chai... yeah.. that's for real... hai... who wud want to keep her grudges...not me of course...bsta masaya... andme nga ding food eh...parang puro kaen lng ung ngwa nmen knina... hahaha...andame kong nkaen na taba!!!! yummy! aion...
after the recollection, mench and i went to the mall of asia... ngpasama kxe xa sken bumili ng toot-toot...hahahaha... it was fun!!!! ng-camwhoring lng kme sa loob ng fitting room....nyahahaha... we tried on the dresses we liked... hay...i really love those dresses that we had tried on... hai... para kmeng mga shopaholic kuno sa gnwa nmen!!! FUN! FUN! FUN! tlga...
i'l not go into the details nrin kce, meron pkong ggawen eh... un lng for this day....
ciao^^
God bless!!!!
earlier this day, our class had a recollection held at the school multi-purpose hall...it was supposed to start at 8 am...i arrived 9 am...i was late! grrr... sayang... yeah...i really don't find recollections as a corny event...i'm actually excited about it...i sat at the back with rj, menchie and brion... it was kinda noisy.... ang ingay ng mga classmates ko...ang aga-aga restless na cla..hahaha.... when i looked at the person speaking in front, i recognized that he was the same guy who facilitated our recollection way back 2007, when we were second year....that was held in San Carlos Seminary at Guadalupe, Makati City... aun...geh balik na tayo sa present... hehehe... pinalipat kme ni Sir joel sa hrap...nauna akong lumipat....then menchie followed.... we sat on the second row...then a woman stood in front and told everybody sitting at the back to transfer in the vacant at the front row... good thing that they followed her...hehehe.... nung una mejo attentive to unattentive ung status ko...hahaha... sorry po! tska c mench, ang daldal! hahaha.... interesting nmn ung talk eh.... (i forgot to mention the name of the facilitators...hehehe.... there were two of them...kuya joel and ate malou) kudos to you peple!
aun... i wud just like to share some of the few words of wisdom na shinare din nila smen knina...^^tnx to menchie and brion for the notebook and pen n binigay nila sken nung bday ko!hehehe.... tnx also to karla for lending me her colored pens....luvyah kulluh!
" you can never be sure....:'(" ---ate malou
kung anong ka ngayon yan ay dahil sa kung ano ung mga gnwa mo noon...you can blame no one but yourself!
we are called to exist!
respect begets respect..
the antidote to our every FEAR is our STRONG FAITH in God!
LET GO!!!!
will you stay or go...?
life is so short!:'(
relate with others... bridge the gap...
" less prayer, less blessing... no prayer, no blessing... no God, no Life..."
use your heart instead of your mind...
sbe ni ate malou eto ung meaning ng humility....
humility is the knowledge of who God is and the complete acknoledgement of who we really are
hndi daw totoo na time heals....
We have the capacity to change and bring change because we are God's children....
act consciously!!! BE AWARE!!!!
~~~~ change is a commitment....it is constant.... curiosity leads to change.....CHANGE FOR THE BETTER!!!! CHRIST completes the CHANGE!!!!.....
where our reason ends, FAITH begins...
~~~~~ basically, umikot ung recollection nmen tungkol sa pgging ready nmen sumabak sa mundo sa labas ng paaralan... kung matatag ba ang relasxon nmn sa mga mhal nmn sa buhay....sa mga tao sa pligid nmn...sa mga taong hndi nmn kakilala....sa relasyong nmn kay God at kung anu2 pa...
i really had a great day today.... after the talk....ngkaroon ng reconciliation/ hugging moments ang buong class ng BSN IV-6...hehehe... yes, i hugged them al...except for the few yata n busy rin hugging our other classmates... i reconciled with chai... yeah.. that's for real... hai... who wud want to keep her grudges...not me of course...bsta masaya... andme nga ding food eh...parang puro kaen lng ung ngwa nmen knina... hahaha...andame kong nkaen na taba!!!! yummy! aion...
after the recollection, mench and i went to the mall of asia... ngpasama kxe xa sken bumili ng toot-toot...hahahaha... it was fun!!!! ng-camwhoring lng kme sa loob ng fitting room....nyahahaha... we tried on the dresses we liked... hay...i really love those dresses that we had tried on... hai... para kmeng mga shopaholic kuno sa gnwa nmen!!! FUN! FUN! FUN! tlga...
i'l not go into the details nrin kce, meron pkong ggawen eh... un lng for this day....
ciao^^
God bless!!!!
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